This is what happens when you have no friends and spend what little time you have back in your “home” scribbling notes and talking to yourself. Bad 70’s facial hair. It was funny to me but no one got the joke. People started to say “that suits you”. Which means I must look pretty fucked normally if this thing is an improvement.
Anyway this is just a note to let ye know i am alive and breathing. It’s 1 am and I’m supposed to be asleep coz I’m heading west for a surf in a few hours. Why am i still awake? Because i am in a blind panic about how little of the year there is left and i am being slapped in the face by all i didn’t manage to complete yet. Years are non refundable. I honestly wish i never had to sleep. Life is too short. I spoke with a friend of mine i used to work doors with and he has had a lung removed. Went in with a cough came out minus a fucking lung. Jaysus. Well 2009 are you listening? You’re fucked.
I wont go into details with all the projects swimming in my head, best to do and then present rather than talk. There is too much talk. Too much noise. Not enough action in the world.
It looks like i will be on the road until July of 2009. That will be weird. I don’t want to give up me flat where i record and store all my stuff. But i may need to. Having a flat…even if it is a hole with strange fungal lifeforms from damp…is…is? Fuck i don’t know, sanity? Even if i am hardly here and forget where everything is when i return.
Who knows…all i know is time is screaming in one direction and me in another. I know it wins in the end but by jesus i want to kick the living shit out of it on the way down.